“Could this be Earth? Could this be light? Does this mean everything is going to be alright? When I look out my window there’s trees talking like people. I’ve dreamt of stroms, I’ve dreamt of sound, I’ve dreamt of gravity keeping us around. I’ve slept in the darkness, it was lonely, and it was silent. What is this love? I don’t feel the same. Don’t believe what this is could be given a name. I woke, you were there, tracing planets on my forehead. But I forget 23 like I forget 17 and I forget my first love, like you forget a daydream. And what of all my wild friends and the times I’ve had with them will all fade to grey soon on your TV station.”—Frank Ocean (via imbatmannigga)
School just makes me sad. I see you in three classes. I start my day kicking myself. And I end up sadder than ever by the end of the day. Just being close to you. Knowing how much I messed up. Then theres practice, where I don’t even want to be. I cried at practice today, because I drowned my thoughts in you and everything just got to me. I know you know this is for you. And I know you’re much stronger than I am. So there’s not point for me to even be upset or apologizing to you. You don’t care. And that’s alright. I can’t help but cry while writing this. When even the thought of you makes me upset. Geez you’re absolutely fine without me. I don’t even know why I care that you smile not because of me anymore.. Just mad at myself I guess. If you’re still reading then thanks. If not that’s ok too. This note is pointless and stupid..